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My passion is helping others defend themselves and their families. I am an NRA Certified pistol instructor, a NRA Chief Range Safety Officer, leader of TWAW Shooting Chapters - North Cincinnati, and the state leader of TWAW Shooting Chapters - Ohio. I also have a heart for the Lakota people and lead mission teams to the Pine Ridge Reservation each year, am founder and director of Backpacks For Pine Ridge,, and do various volunteer work in my own community. My greatest joy is being a grandma and hanging out with my husband of 30+ years.

Friday, September 30, 2005

What's the Name of Your God?

Wow, that question always gets me. I have a friend, actually he was my pastor when I was a kid, who once preached a sermon "What's the name of your God?". In that sermon he basically told his story of how he and his wife had adopted (not fostered - adopted!) several special needs children and how God had provided for their needs in some pretty amazing and miraclous ways. Since then, that question has haunted me and challenged me in those times which are all too common, when I begin to fret and worry about how things will work out.

A few weeks ago I was a part of a trip to Meridan MS, and then to Grand Isle LA, and then on to Sulphur/Lake Charles LA to take food to the victims of Hurricane Katrina. You can read about that adventure, and an adventure it was, at my other blog That trip was amazing ... not becuase we had anything to do with it, but because it was put together in a matter of 3 days and becuase it worked out so perfectly that it was absolutely obvoius to eveyone that only God could have pulled that off. It was fun to watch the impossible take place and to be a part of it.

BUT that trip challenged me about how I think about God. I'm typically the kind of person who is very comfortable with the mundane. The kind of person who often sees God working in the daily stuff of life and doesn't anitcipate too much the "great things" God does. I've come to believe that God does His best in the quiet, boring, daily routine of your life and mine. I still believe that it is often in those mundane things that God grooms us and grows us. I still belive that it is just as spiritual to be faithful in the less exctiting tasks as it is to do "great things for God". Maybe even more spiritual. And I still believe that EGO can play a big part in doing "great things for God". I can write for a while about EGO and how I've seen people attitbute to God what is really their own ego. BUT ...

Maybe I've been overlooking something .... the fact that God indeed does do some pretty great things. Maybe I've limited Him by thinking too small? I certainly would have never attempted to put together a relief effort in 3 days! In fact, had God asked me to do that I'd have been pretty ticked off with Him. It takes me several months to put together a trip to in Indian Reservation every year ... and that doesn't count the additional months spent raising money for it.

Another thing that has challenged me ... my son. My 20 year-old son is very involved with Campus Cursade for Chirst and, by no real effort of his own, has been used to bring together hundrends, perhaps thousands, of college students from all over the state of Ohio for a day of prayer and fasting for revival. This is SO out of his league and yet another example of how God was the one in charge of the planning. My son was not even aware of a nationally known speaker when he got a call from her offing to come and speak for free at this meeting. This speaker is Becky Tirabossi, a lady who worked closely with Bill Bright and now is very focused on prayer. Becky had already planned to be at OSU on the same date as the prayer gathering. Nobody but God could plan that ... especially since my son didn't even know who Becky was.

Now, you have to understand what a big turn off all of this is for me. It reeks of ego and control and can quickly lead to the "I'm big and your little" way of looking at things. But I have to take notice .... esepcially since I KNOW that no one TRIED to do this or planned it in any way .... it all just fell in place as if Someone else is doing it all.

So, what am I saying? I've really no idea. Just that I think I'm being challenged to expect more from God .... That maybe I shouldn't automatically count some things out that I don't like or understand them, because God may in fact be using them too .....That maybe I need stop limiting Him by thinking too small ..... That maybe the mundane has become too comfortable ..... That maybe I need to remember who I serve. What's the name of Your God?

Hello? Can You Hear Me Now??

Why should I do a blog? I barely have time to read the blogs of my friends as it is, so starting another one seems like a waste of time. But it may help me to stay focused on the things God is trying to get through my rather thick head .... and maybe I'll even take a moment to speak back to Him.

Geez, there I go alluding to that phrase that I've so despised ... the "God told me _____" phrase. Saying that God speaks to me still sounds so arrogant to me in a lot of ways, but I do believe He speaks ... not becuase we're "special" in any way but simply becuase He wants relationship with us.

So, feel free to read, or comment, or post about what God is saying to YOU at this time in your life. Even if you don't post here, I do hope you'll join Him in the conversation.