When I first started blogging I questioned why I should do it, or why I would want to do it. I decided that it would be good for a number of reasons: (1) typing about my "conversations" with God would help me to focus on where I'm at in my walk with God, (2) it would force me to think, something I don't normally do a lot of, and (3) it would force me to write, even if it's just on a blog and I'm giving little thougth to how I write. It was something personal ... something that I didn't mind if others read, but nothing that I expected anyone to read, much less respond to.
Then a funny thing happened. People read it. And people responded. And that was cool! I heard things that seem so foreign to me but that felt good to hear. Things like "you're thoughts are always interesting" or, "you write really well" or some other such stuff. I never hear that from anyone else. In fact, most of the people who know me in daily life never ever tell me that my thoughts are worthy of a listen. Frankly, it shocked me that anyone would care to read what I have to say. But it was nice.
Then I noticed that no one that I know in my daily life ever reads my blog. My husband has read it once, maybe twice. My friends seldom ever check it out. I'm shy by nature and people always tell me that I'm hard to get to know, yet here is an opportunity to get to know me and what makes me tick and so few take the opportunity. Sometimes that hurts. Here is "me" out here, being open and vulnerable and sharing my thoughts and feelings - a chance to let people in and when those closest to me don't read, well ..... sometimes it feels as if they don't care. At the same time, total strangers, all from different countries, do read and they apparently like what I have to share. Baffeling. I've concluded that it doesn't really matter if they read or not though since the purpose of my blog is just to journal about my own walk with Christ.
Today I've read at Michael's blog about a bit of advice to not share your blog with those closest to you. And I've read a number of blogs where people seem to share a feeling of disappointment when there are few comments on their blogs. So, I'm wondering .... how do you all feel about this? Is my experience similar to yours?