Sas The Chocolatholic has a really great post on her blog about Searching For Purpose. You really should check it out. It got me to thinking about how God so rarely shows us what His plans are. Sas says, and I agree, that God rarely shows us His whole plan .... but that it's usualy in hindsight that we look back and see where He was leading us. That's the essence of walking by faith and not by sight.
I have to say that this both irritates me to no end, and thrills me at the same time. On one hand, I'm one of those people who need a lot of assurance that I'm doing OK .... that I'm doing what He wants me to do and not just following my own whims. But on the other hand it's a greater adventure to step out on faith. Since I LOVE adventure, I really wouldn't choose to live any other way.
Then there are times when God simply doesn't make ANY sense. It's in those times that my faith is truly tested. I continue to follow Him simply because I really do believe that He is in control and that He does in fact know what He's doing, even when it appears that He doesn't.
I'm in the midst of one of those times right now.
It is now certain that I will not be going to Grand Isle. My son is no better. In fact, he is worse. He is scheduled for an MRI on Monday (Halloween). After the trip to the ER he began running a fever. He's also had a headache since Tuesday. He's now managed to completly baffle 4 doctors.
Your prayers for him are really appreciated.
I would love to write more but it's late and I've worked a LOT of hours this weekend and am running on very little sleep. SO, I'll go get some sleep and then tomorrow... I'll just keep walking.