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My passion is helping others defend themselves and their families. I am an NRA Certified pistol instructor, a NRA Chief Range Safety Officer, leader of TWAW Shooting Chapters - North Cincinnati, and the state leader of TWAW Shooting Chapters - Ohio. I also have a heart for the Lakota people and lead mission teams to the Pine Ridge Reservation each year, am founder and director of Backpacks For Pine Ridge,, and do various volunteer work in my own community. My greatest joy is being a grandma and hanging out with my husband of 30+ years.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

Exposed!

OK, now for a narcissistic moment....

I was cleaning out old drawers today and came upon a bunch of family photos. I have no idea what got into me, but I played around with a slide show of - myself. I know. *yawn*

I showed it to my husband and he said he thought it was very strange and out of character for me to make a slide show of myself. It is. My biggest personal struggle has been self-acceptance - especially in regards to accepting the way I look. I've always hated how I look and went through a life and death battle with anorexia. I had hoped that recovery from the eating disorder would bring about a measure of self-acceptance, but it has not. If anything, since I've gained weight, I hate the way I look even more. So doing this slide show is maybe a test of how much I can accept me? There are not a lot of pictures of me around - I aviod the camera when possible and have been known to destroy ones that I was unable to avoid. These somehow survived. And for whatever reason - narcissism or self-acceptance, or just for no reason at all, here I am...

6 comments:

annie said...

I vote for self-acceptance! I avoid the camera too. I think it is good that you were able to do this.

Bar Bar A said...

THAT WAS AWESOME!!!! I LOVE IT! You are one gorgeous lady! That was so fun, it really said "This is Me!"
I love your sense of adventure, your love of animals and your compassion for others. You just rock, Amber!!!

Bruce said...

I agree with Barbara...you rock. Go with self-acceptance.

I love that mustang.

B~

Gary Means said...

Very cool! My Favorite pics are your wedding shot (What a beautiful bride) and the one of you and Taser (the slide right before you and Brian and all the beer. I also really like the Pine Ridge, Haiti, and Amber-as-mom shots.

thanks so much for sharing. You've got that You Tube thing down!

Amber said...

Thanks guys. I felt silly after posting this but I suppose it was a good thing for me to do.

David Cho said...

Awesome stuff. Ah, the 70's and 80's fashion. Always makes me laugh.