That is most definately true for me. After 3 years of leading mission trips I still marvel at the way God chooses to work and specifically who He chooses to work through. I am the very last person on earth who should be leading mission trips. Here is the list of reasons why I should not be doing this:
- When I started this I had NO experience.
- I had no idea what all I was getting into (else I probably would have never done it).
- I have a ver poor sense of direction. As Brian says, I can't find my way out of a closet. So what on earth made me think I could take a group of people across the United States???
- I really like it when people like me and am very sensitive to criticism. Being in a position of leadership, there are alwasy those who do not like what I do or how I do it so I have to deal with that kind of thing a lot. Ten years ago I really could not have done it. I've grown some since then but it is still not something I am at all comfortable with.
- I do not like being in a position where I am called upon to make difficult decisions. (For the same reason as above).
- I am not someone who likes telling people what to do. And I really don't like it when I have to tell someone to NOT do something they are doing. I very seldom even tell my kids what to do. I did when they were young but now that they are older I believe they should make their own decisions and live with the consequences. I have a real aversion to being in a position where I have to give direction to adults. It's just "not me" and I am extremely uncomfortable with it.
So, WHY would God choose someone like me to carry this out?? I have no idea. I really don't. I"m still amazed that it works at all.
BTW, tomorrow I will have the pictures/video up of our trip. Sorry Barbara, there is no video of us dancing at the Pow Wow. We were all dancing and no one was left to video it. There is one picture but it's dark and far away and you can't tell at all what we are doing.