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My passion is helping others defend themselves and their families. I am an NRA Certified pistol instructor, a NRA Chief Range Safety Officer, leader of TWAW Shooting Chapters - North Cincinnati, and the state leader of TWAW Shooting Chapters - Ohio. I also have a heart for the Lakota people and lead mission teams to the Pine Ridge Reservation each year, am founder and director of Backpacks For Pine Ridge,, and do various volunteer work in my own community. My greatest joy is being a grandma and hanging out with my husband of 30+ years.

Friday, March 23, 2007

Hard To Get

It's been a tough month and an especially difficult week. In the past month those close to me have suffered a untold pain. One man found out he has cancer, it's pretty advanced. My dad has been on a roller coaster with tests and treatment for his cancer. My parent's house flooded and did thousands of dollars worth of damage. There are countless people going through the pain of broken familes and addictions in our church. And there is death. One family in our church who I hold dear has suffered three deaths this week - two in one day. It makes no sense. Times like this never do.

You who live in heaven
Hear the prayers of those of us who live on earth
Who are afraid of being left by those we love
And who get hardened by the hurt
Do you remember when
You lived down here where we all scrape
To find the faith to ask for daily bread
Did You forget about us after
You had flown away
Well I memorized every word You said
Still I'm so scared, I'm holding my breath
While You're up there just playing hard to get

You who live in radianceHear the prayers of those of us who live in skin
We have a love that's not as patient as Yours was
Still we do love now and then
Did You ever know loneliness
Did You ever know need
Do You remember just how long a night can get?
When You were barely holding on

And Your friends fall asleep
And don't see the blood that's running in Your sweat
Will those who mourn be left uncomforted
While You're up there just playing hard to get?

And I know you bore our sorrows
And I know you feel our pain
And I know it would not hurt any less
Even if it could be explained
And I know that I am only lashing out
At the One who loves me most
And after I figured this, somehow
All I really need to know
Is if You who live in eternity
Hear the prayers of those of us who live in time
We can't see what's ahead
And we can not get free of what we've left behind
I'm reeling from these voices that keep screaming in my ears
All the words of shame and doubt, blame and regret
I can't see how You're leading me unless You've led me here
Where I'm lost enough to let myself be led
And so You've been here all along I guess
It's just Your ways and You are just plain hard to get


~ Hard To Get by Rich Mullins

1 comment:

Robert said...

powerful touching moving heartwrenching i could use plenty more adjectives. Thank you Amber. The beginning of your post says it all as to the longing we all experience in that song!!!