I'm not sure what to do or what to think or what to feel on a day like today. I seem to be in the middle of such feelings and thoughts that are so extremely opposite of each other.
There is the paralyzing sadness of the Virginia Tech massacre. I don't even know what to say about this. Any words I find seem so shallow and empty. I feel drawn to my TV to hear details and as a way to try to make sense of a senseless situation. My heart aches for all of those affected and all I can do is pray.
Today is also a sad day personally. Two years ago today my cousin Brad committed suicide. It doesn't seem like two years have passed. I still wish I could turn back the clock and find a way to prevent him from doing this horrible thing. And even if it could not be prevented, to enjoy his company a while longer. Here is a picture of Brad when he was a kid playing with a much younger Cody and Logan.
Yet in the middle of so much sadness and grief, there is so much crazy good stuff happening. I am amazed at the way things are happening so fast. The Backpacks for Pine Ridge project has barely begun and yet we already have $150 collected, there is a teacher's association at Ball State University that is very interested in making this a significant project next year, and the Mountain Fund has offered several backpacks and may even be willing to ship them!
In addition to that, Caring Partners, a medical mission ministry will be speaking at our church this Sunday. They have offered to give us medications and retail sized personal care items for both Haiti and Pine Ridge. Apparently they have skids full of items they are willing to give. Now where do I put all that? I'll find a place, don't worry.
And then another team member is checking with Matthew 25 Ministries to see if we can get donations from them and they have said they have plenty of school supplies. We should be meeting with them soon to see how this is going to work out.
And in a few weeks we will have more than 20 people from our church going to Eagle's Nest to do all sorts of work projects. The same day there will be 4-6 more people going to the homeless shelter to give haircuts and massages.
It's crazy. So much evil in the world and yet so much good too.