I've not blogged in a while because I don't have much new to say. Imagine that. Basically, I'm just stewing in frustration.
I'm frustrated with my dad's health and the care he is getting. He has had a rare form of prostate cancer for a couple of years now. A year ago his urologist sent him to an oncologist for chemo. The oncologist decided that it was not time for chemo and chose to just test his PSA monthly and wait for it to get to a certain point before starting any treatment. Well, last month it went beyond that point and the urologist sent him back to the oncologist to see if he could get into a study for an experimental treatment. Wednesday he saw the oncologist who said that study was closed and he is still delaying chemo. He is scheduled for a bone scan and a cat scan but that's it. Just more waiting. In the meantime, the cancer is growing. I am frustrated that nothing is being done. It doesn't make any sense to me.
I'm also frustrated with my diet. It's been about 3 1/2 weeks now and I do feel better (no heartburn) but I've not lost much weight - maybe 5 - 7 pounds. I've "cheated" 3 times. Last Monday we went to Cody and Allison's and picked up some pizzas and Cody made brownies. I ate a slice of pizza, a couple of cheese sticks and a brownie. I did skip the ice cream. I know I should exercise and that would help but it's currently 0 degrees out. I don't want to walk when it's nice out and I'm not about to go out in that bitter cold. I just want to say to heck with it and eat whatever I want. I could really go for a bag of chips and a big juicy hamburger. I would regret it of course so I'll just keep doing the right thing every day and maybe one day I'll see a change. I guess that's the trick - just keep doing what you know you're supposed to do and someday it will pay off.
I'm also frustrated with this ear/sinus infection. Tomorrow is my last day of meds and I can't tell it's doing any good at all. I can't hear a thing out of my right ear and it's getting more annoying by the day.
I'm still working on Rezonate '08, trying to get sponsors. That's frustrating too. Everyone likes the idea, no one wants to pay for it. Things are moving along well in some areas - everyone is interested. A guy in our church recently reconnected with a former friend of his from high school on Myspace a couple of weeks ago. When he reposted one of our bulletins about the concert, she read it and was impressed with what we're doing. Turns out she is the editor of several local newspapers and is going to put it in the paper for us at no charge. That's cool but if we don't raise money to rent equipment, we won't be having a concert.
Oh, and it's COLD here. Did I mention that. There is just no way to warm up when it's this cold.
So that about sums up life here for the moment.